Sigh....

bonjour 蹦豬
hello 哈囉

that friday, i had dinner with WL, and listen to her story with that Japanese guy
how hard it is, for her to leave him
how she was like a zombie when he's not around
and how she became alive when he show up
she wouldn't dare to contact him
but just steer at his name on msn and hoping he might contact her
or from his status, trying to figure out his life
her whole life is revolving around him

someone, after hearing her said that, all the sudden, i feel better about my own situation with Adrian
after all, my love for him isn't that special at all
and Adrian isn't the only man ignoring love from women
maybe, just maybe once he said that to me, i'll have the courage to leave him

i am so confused, does he love me or not
maybe he does, just he's in no position to offer me anything
maybe he doesn't, just didn't know how to tell me given my current health situation
every time when he said the mean thing to me
all i want to do is prove to him that it's not true
but this time, i am simply too tired, if he still doesn't believe
i might as well just move back home, cut off everything here, and have a bright start

but i just can't help keep reading those sweet things he wrote me before
i don't know why love can just disappeared like that
one minute, you are full of passion, she's some one you can't live without
next minute, you are tired, she's just someone very annoyed..
WHY!?
why is it so hard to be in love
love should be something simple and organic

am i pushing this too hard
am i just falling to the feeling of love instead of loving him
am i just can't stang being alone

i think i do love him, just don't know what to do with this...

bonjour 蹦豬
hello 哈囉

it seems like no one is coming to this website
then it's a perfect place for me to write what ever i like

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

quote Marilyn Monroe

who knows a bombshell can pinpoint my feeling so well